It’s been a long time since I dreamt of my son. 3 months after he passed he came to me. It was meaningful and vivid. It was so much more than a dream. It was where we use to live and he was waiting for me. I ran to him and he held me. I said I miss you so much and we both just hugged and cried and then he waved goodbye. The second dream the three of us were hugging. It was me and my 2 sons. He had his arms around both of us. It had such great meaning. The last time was last May. I was on vacation unaware of dates. I woke up crying. He brought my brother to me. He said Mom I brought Uncle Tommy to you. He was dressed as he always was. I woke up and I checked the date because it was May. I lost my brother May 19 and it was May 19.❤ I went to two different mediums since then and both said they were together and knew how my brother died and the cancer that took him. We will always be connected. As much as I miss touching his face he is there. Perhaps he feels it caused me too much pain to visit me but if it is pain I must feel to see his smile it’s ok.

For the mothers whose children have grown. We never lose sight of once was. Those memories stay with us. They are tucked away from inside of our heart. We hang them out occasionally. Stand back and stare at our early days. Days that we thought would never end. They were exhausting but I would never trade any one of them. They have completed my life. Our journey. The journey. Of learning to love apart of us.

We talked about you today. We laughed, we cried but most of all we remembered you. The light of you embraced our hearts and shown so bright. For the first time in 3 years I didn’t feel alone. I felt like you were here holding us. I didnt have to suppress my thoughts or hide how I feel every day. It felt so wonderful to say your name out loud and hear a chorus of love join in. It

Was a day I could breathe again. Life will go back tomorrow but today existed.

My light in my life that will never go out. ❤ 3 years ago today I was never the same again.

My son always found nature to be a magical purpose in his life. It created joy and happiness for him. He often took his daughter to these places. Sands point preserve pictured here,Westbury gardens, planting fields. Hewent as a child and perhaps it took him back to a place of innocence. Where life was carefree as a child and the responsibility we gain as we get older can sometimes try to take that away. His daughter walked right along side him sharing the beauty. He gave this gift to her.

My son was an old soul. I felt it so appropriate to include this since he loved Charlie Chaplin. Another soul who felt so deeply and loved laughter. He would have wanted me to post this.

By Charlie Chaplin written on his 70th birthday

There will always be people That hold a world of compassion and hope for you. They may not be the people you thought would be your team but sometimes God knows a better one. Don’t walk alone