My son started competing in tattoo competitions. He was the person you couldnt help adore since he was born. He found his balance in friendship and expressing himself artistically.

Thank You”

The first year I lost my son, there was a song that would come on the radio by Illenium. It was released in 2009. I never heard it before. It would come on at the most appropriate times. I knew . I just knew it was his song to me. I went to a medium after this happened and she said hes sending you the song. Listen.

“You are the only one
You are the only one that kept me alive
You were the only one, the only one that was on my side
You were the only one that kept me alive”

I truly believe the energy of their soul the first year is so strong.

I have met so many new people since I lost my son. I have never reached out to strangers before randomly on social media. I feel like some feeling took over me and led me to each one of them. We each have our journey on this road. We each lost the unimaginable in our life. I thank God they were placed in the balance of my grief. I cant help to think my son just knew I needed them. He was my person and he knew I needed compassionate people to help me.

It’s true what they say, when a child is born,
a mother’s heart is no longer her own,
It runs and skips and giggles and grins,
And crawls in her lap, fo

r a kiss on the chin,
But where goes her heart, when that child is gone,
Is it true what they say, that life goes on.

A thousand ninety-five days, and the clock still ticks,
3 whole years, the months – 36,
Does the passage of time mean it should make sense,
Can loss be measured in time increments.
As I yearn for the day when I’ll again see my son,
Is it true what they say, that life goes on.

I still breathe in and out and arise every day,
And work, and struggle, and yes, even play,
Things will get better, I’ve been told many times,
But “different” is the status for those left behind,
Time can’t heal all wounds nor break all bonds,
Can it be true what they say, that life goes on.

In the air and wind, I feel your strong embrace,
And your kisses from butterflies that land on my face,
I see your smile in the beams of the sun,
The twinkle of your eyes now shines in Eden,
And I hear your laugh in the lyrics of song,
Is it possibly true, that life goes on.

It’s strange to think that your heart still beats,
Inside some stranger, whom I’ll never meet,
Does he know he carries a heart of gold,
From my sweet boy, who will never grow old,
So many lives saved by your own,
Yes – it’s true what they say, that life goes on.

~ Cheryl McDonald
Painting by Sey Perez