Compassion

I have met so many new people since I lost my son. I have never reached out to strangers before randomly on social media. I feel like some feeling took over me and led me to each one of them. We each have our journey on this road. We each lost the unimaginable in our life. I thank God they were placed in the balance of my grief. I cant help to think my son just knew I needed them. He was my person and he knew I needed compassionate people to help me.

Time moves on

It’s true what they say, when a child is born,
a mother’s heart is no longer her own,
It runs and skips and giggles and grins,
And crawls in her lap, fo

r a kiss on the chin,
But where goes her heart, when that child is gone,
Is it true what they say, that life goes on.

A thousand ninety-five days, and the clock still ticks,
3 whole years, the months – 36,
Does the passage of time mean it should make sense,
Can loss be measured in time increments.
As I yearn for the day when I’ll again see my son,
Is it true what they say, that life goes on.

I still breathe in and out and arise every day,
And work, and struggle, and yes, even play,
Things will get better, I’ve been told many times,
But “different” is the status for those left behind,
Time can’t heal all wounds nor break all bonds,
Can it be true what they say, that life goes on.

In the air and wind, I feel your strong embrace,
And your kisses from butterflies that land on my face,
I see your smile in the beams of the sun,
The twinkle of your eyes now shines in Eden,
And I hear your laugh in the lyrics of song,
Is it possibly true, that life goes on.

It’s strange to think that your heart still beats,
Inside some stranger, whom I’ll never meet,
Does he know he carries a heart of gold,
From my sweet boy, who will never grow old,
So many lives saved by your own,
Yes – it’s true what they say, that life goes on.

~ Cheryl McDonald
Painting by Sey Perez

Dreams

You visited me while I was sleeping.
You held my hand
as we drifted among the stars
whispering ”come with me mom,
I’ll show you where I’m living now.”

Laughing together we floated
in and out of places
that were snatched from me
as soon as I awoke.

Remembering that
I had visited somewhere
beautiful with you
and you were happy.

~ Author Unknown
“Late Last Night” painting by Johnathan Harris

Because of you

Because of you I appreciate the sunset more than before.

Because of you I stop to look up at the moon and wish upon a star.

Because of you I look forward to hearing the birds

Singing in the morning, and am thankful for their beautiful songs.

Because of you I am more understanding of others and accept people for who they are.

Because of you material things do not matter.

Because of you the touch of someone you love is more precious than any gift you can receive.

Because of you I have a broken heart but I thank God for sending you to me.

For there is no stronger love than I hold for you.
Until we meet again.

~ J. Melia

The Two Quarters

When my son was a little boy my Dad took him to the park and gave him 2 new quarters. My son met some new friends and thought nothing to give the quarters to them. My dad loved to tell that story. Since then I put two quarters on his stone at the church on my way home from work. One weekend after I first started to do

it I went to the supermarket. I was having a rough emotional day missing him. As I looked down there were 2 new quarters sitting together at the credit card swipe. Thank you for my sign to remind me you are always with me.