When I lost my son I realized how much I depended upon him to survive all my storms. He was my person. My every day phone call. I woke up each day thinking how will I breathe today. I became a different person. I no longer could feel true joy with so many blessings still in my life. It is a pain like no other. I lost my Mom my Dad 5 months apart and my brother . This was Gods true test in my faith.