What if

I sometimes think back to a time so long ago. I had very little but I had so much. What if I never moved from the place you were born and lived for 20 years. What if I stayed. Would life have taken another course. Would you still be here.

The day we pulled the moving truck away. If I knew you would have left me. If I knew you would turn so sad in your heart, I would have never left. I carry this burden in my heart every day.

How do we know what turns life has lying ahead for us. I never thought I would lose you. I will cherish this photo forever on your birthday. It was the place the three of us lived. We lived in a castle in our hearts.

4 thoughts on “What if

  1. So many “what if’s!” We go through the beautiful memories, and they just pop up, around ever turn.
    But what is Billy didn’t have a mother that loved him more than he could ever have imagined? What if he didn’t have his precious little Maggie? What if he hadn’t been the kind beautiful soul that he was?
    Your child loved and was loved. He made the world a better place. He left way too soon, but most that live far longer never Lever leave such a legacy of love!
    Hugs to you much dear Karen!

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  2. Oh gosh. Sending You so much Love. For whatever it’s worth, I truly believe in my heart our what-ifs are meaningless. I may be wrong, but I believe this planet is school and that we are gifted exactly the experiences we need to grow. So I believe even if You had stayed, Billy’s path would have largely run it’s course anyway. You are full of love and kindness. Please be sweet to Yourself and I can’t even imagine how difficult it would be to not go into what if land….we all do it….but just know You did Your best with what You knew at the time every single step of the way. We are all always in God’s hands at every turn. My words feel so trite…but my heart is running over for You. Blessings to You and Yours. ❤️❤️❤️

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