Author: all thats worth remembering

A mother who has experienced the unimaginable. My greatest gift in my life are my sons. I could never imagine my life without them until one day I lost one. I want to honor his memory and help others who have experienced the same with my support and friendship. I have met amazing new friends through this journey that have saved me from losing my balance. "You will never see a Rainbow if you are always looking down" charlie Chaplin

Tattoo

My son designed a tattoo in 2013 for me. He sent me the drawing and said “mom..the Lily is for grandma her favorite flower…and the dancing Nancy is our shared love for the Dave Matthew’s band. We colored it in purple and gold for their birthstones. He was with me when I got it done and took these photos.  My mom my Dad and my brother. He said one day you will look at your tattoo and remember our night together when you did it.

Fathers Day

I thought about how sad this day will be for my granddaughter as she gets older and is no longer distracted by childhood. She will be the girl whose father died and will always feel sadness on this day as I do now. I hope she will remember some frozen memory in her mind of a day with you when she was 3.

On our journey of grief and grieving we meet not only sorrow, but also beauty. We touch places within ourselves which we didn’t know existed, and through that connect with the deepest parts of others. The loss of a child changes us forever and teaches us about what really matters in life.

Memories

When I look at this photo I remember….my son and I were attending DMB at Jones beach in 2013. Our seats were so far up.

. My seat was broken so my son told the usher. He said my mom loves Dave Matthew’s so much can you get her a better seat. So he took us down on the floor. We had VIP seats. My son said who loves you Mom. We had them take this photo of us because we were so excited. Love you my son always ❤🦋

Finding joy again

When you lose a child all that once brought you joy has changed. Listening to the radio. You cant listen to sad music or watch sad movies. As new seasons approach they dont feel the same. The newness of spring or anticipation of summer. To laugh so hard or to roll down the windows on a warm day in your car and sing to your favorite song. It’s all different now. The joy has left.  We need to find that joy in what God has given us to enjoy.  Find your balance and your peace.