On our journey of grief and grieving we meet not only sorrow, but also beauty. We touch places within ourselves which we didn’t know existed, and through that connect with the deepest parts of others. The loss of a child changes us forever and teaches us about what really matters in life.
When I look at this photo I remember….my son and I were attending DMB at Jones beach in 2013. Our seats were so far up.
. My seat was broken so my son told the usher. He said my mom loves Dave Matthew’s so much can you get her a better seat. So he took us down on the floor. We had VIP seats. My son said who loves you Mom. We had them take this photo of us because we were so excited. Love you my son always ❤🦋
When you lose a child all that once brought you joy has changed. Listening to the radio. You cant listen to sad music or watch sad movies. As new seasons approach they dont feel the same. The newness of spring or anticipation of summer. To laugh so hard or to roll down the windows on a warm day in your car and sing to your favorite song. It’s all different now. The joy has left. We need to find that joy in what God has given us to enjoy. Find your balance and your peace.
Think of your child, then, not as dead, but as living; not as a flower that has withered, but as one that is transplanted, and touched by a Divine hand, is blooming in richer colors and sweeter shades than those of earth.
My son gave this card to me a week before he got married. He was so worried I would feel like I was being replaced. His heart was always 10 steps ahead of always caring for others. He truly had a heart of gold and he was my hero.
When I lost my son I realized how much I depended upon him to survive all my storms. He was my person. My every day phone call. I woke up each day thinking how will I breathe today. I became a different person. I no longer could feel true joy with so many blessings still in my life. It is a pain like no other. I lost my Mom my Dad 5 months apart and my brother . This was Gods true test in my faith.
All that's worth Remembering 
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